Fic: The Silent Witness of this Endless War

Title: The Silent Witness of this Endless War

Author: UgzY

Status: Complete

Category: POV, thoughts, ficlet

Pairing: None

Words: 534

Spoilers: none really, having seen the whole series and the movie will help though.

Rating: K+

Content Warning: None

Summary: Reflection upon one’s past

Disclaimer: Stargate Sg-1 and its characters are the property of Stargate (II) Productions, Showtime/Viacom, MGM/UA, Double Secret Productions, and Gekko Productions. This story is for entertainment purposes only and no money exchanged hands. No copyright infringement is intended. The original characters, situations, and story are the property of the author. This story may not be posted elsewhere without the consent of the author.

Author’s notes: As always, thanks to my Beta-Reader, Su Freund. Please let me know if you reached the end of this story and thought… Oh, now I get it! That would be brilliant! ;-)

I have no free will. I have been told what to do for as long as I can remember.

They just place me wherever they think I will serve them best.

I have been the witness of many horrific events I would like to forget about. Innocent people have suffered because of me. Many have lost their lives.

I have been the instrument of terror.

I used to be innocent, even naïve, believing in the goodness of my people.

But my own people deserted me, and those who came after them weren’t as peaceful. Then my orders were crystal clear, I just had to obey to whatever they wanted me to do, without questioning any order, like the good soldier they wanted me to be.

And then it started. All the killing, the abducting, the endless suffering of these people. I was just a toy at their disposal. There was just nothing I could do to prevent all this misery. I mean, I had my orders, it is not like I could have run away. Now, that is something *I* would like to see.

But no, I just stood there, helpless.

And finally it stopped. I could not really tell you who won this war, but in the end it was just me, standing up proudly in the battlefield.

And for a while I had to stay there, no one here to tell me what to do. I was just waiting for some orders.

Finally they came. My new bosses were nothing like the previous ones. All of a sudden, I was taken care of.

Granted, I still was not able to think or act by myself, but it was very different this time around.

This time, destruction was not their purpose. The sporadic shameful duties I had to perform were nothing in the grand scheme of things. Soon, I found myself being used to fight my former bosses. I could only agree with these persons. My bosses were pure evil, and whoever decided to fight them could only be seen as good people.

They were still throwing at me a tremendous amount of information, making my head spin.

As I processed the data sent my way, I always ended up exploding in what they always found a magnificent way. I would let out everything my inner core was made of, before finally being able to pull myself together and comply with their order.

But even if they would look at me with sparkles in their eyes, I was merely a mean to achieve what they had set their mind on. They would walk pass me, without acknowledging what I had to do to please them.

After a while, they would take me for granted, as reliable as could be expected. True, they would work with me at time, making me achieve the unthinkable. But most of the time I was still my ever-predictable self and they wouldn’t accept any less anyway.

But I felt good. I had finally a true purpose in this strange life, eventually fighting the right battles.

So yes, my condition had not improved much. But I wasn’t bitter about it. I mean, what could you expect… from a Stargate?

The End.